Boy Troubles (Who’d of Thought?)

Face hot, cheeks rosy red,

sweat forming, skin glistening,

I pose my question,

he says yes.

Joy, relief, wonderful feelings

reflect the grin on my lips,

eye shining, disbelief showing,

so I ask again,

He smiles and repeats, “yes”.

Time passes, doubt sets in.

Growing worried,

His intentions are asked for,

and now I fear for me,

that any inclination he once had

has been wiped out

by my one little question,

“Did you mean what you said?”

 

So it had taken all semester, but I had finally gotten up the courage to ask my partner on a project if he would go out with me (right after we finished our exam, actually), and when he said yes, as if he’d been waiting the whole time, I couldn’t believe it. But now, I’d be lying if I said that I believed him entirely. Call me a skeptic or a cynic, but I felt as though he’d said it to make me happy.

So then I did the worst thing I could possibly do: I sent him a text asking if he truly meant what he said or not.

And he defended himself, saying he’d been busy with exams, but I haven’t heard from him since, and I fear that I’ve scared him off. It’s not like I’m clingy; who wouldn’t ask that if they hadn’t heard from the person they’d asked out in three days after asking where we’d like to go?

I don’t know what to do. I’ve never even had a kiss, let alone a boyfriend. HELP.

2 thoughts on “Boy Troubles (Who’d of Thought?)

  1. Hello, I know you don’t know me (I don’t even know how I got here, my procrastination level is terrible), but I was really curious as to how this turned out. Did he call you? Did you call him? Did you two go out? What happened? I swear I’m not a creep. Anyway, I just thought I’d give you an advice: don’t ever feel pressured to kiss someone, I don’t know how are the people at your college, but I believe most girls there have already had their first kiss, first boyfriend, first time, etc, but everyone has a different time. My first kiss was awful, I was 13 and I was at a party with my friends and the cutest guy in the class came to me and was like “hey, I wanna kiss you.”. I couldn’t say no (I mean I could, but I didn’t know I couldn’t back then), even though I didn’t even like him, so I kissed him and it was awful. However, two years later I met a guy at a club (here in Germany we start clubbing at an early age) and we became really good friends. A few months later I was at his house helping him with a college paper and he suddenly kissed me and it was the best kiss of my life, because it was with someone I loved (I was so scared to tell him, thinking it would destroy our relationship) and I knew he cared for me. Anyway, I hope it all worked out. Stay classy and true to yourself 😉

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    1. Thanks for your comment, Jenny! We never talked again, and it caused me a ton of stress and guilt, but I’ve gotten over it. I know, in my head, logically, that it is a wise decision to wait for the right guy, the perfect guy, to come along, but then in my heart I’m that dreamer and romantic that is waiting for my knight in shining army to barge into my life on a white horse and sweep me off my feet. Hopefully, I won’t fall so head over heels again for a guy that obviously had no serious feelings for me, and I thank you for your encouragement! ❤

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